Monday, 10 October 2011

wynken, blyken, and nod one night sailed off in a wooden shoe

AbsI've never been a napper, even when I'm exhausted beyond belief, so when it gets dark out and I'm all situated I fall asleep pretty painlessly.

Unless, of course, I've done something stupid.

Like drink Diet Coke after 2 pm.

For the longest time I thought that the caffeine didn't affect me? Like I didn't feel the difference I thought? And then I entered a period of my life where I was having the hardest time falling asleep and I don't think DC is entirely to blame, but it certainly wasn't helping. So I stopped the night time consumption and things seemed to get better. And now, when I break my rules, I don't get tired for hours ad I lay in bed BEMOANING my situation.

And what do I do? Where do I direct my rage?

First I use the excuse to do stuff on Heather's list that I normally might feel too guilty doing. Like watching a lot of TV or starting a Stieg Larrson book when I know both things will keep me up much longer than I actually would be.

If the conditions aren't right for that or I feel above it then I tell myself I should be doing all the stuff that I say I don't have time for or I'm too tired to do. Because staying up is the gift of time. So I try to tackle my work email but it's too haaaaard and I tell myself I should do laundry or clean the bathroom or take a shower but the thing is, I'm not less tired now, I'm just still awake. So they still feel impossible. And so I throw myself back into bed and turn the lights off again. And make myself wait 20 minutes before fiddling with my phone some more.

And then I go back to my vices. To playing on my phone. To finding some show on Megavideo I haven't mainlined yet. To reading a scary scary book. Eventually I fall asleep for a few hours and then I have wake up and act as though I've had a full night's sleep. Because adults are supposed to foolishly stay up all night for fun. And that's what it becomes. Instead of suffering the consequences of my bad decision, I just make it worse LIKE A MORON!

But I'm not the only one, right?


Heather Anne Hogan said...

Yes, this is exactly what I was trying to say!

"I'm not less tired now, I'm just still awake. So they still feel impossible."


Jennie said...

Let's devise a system to tell each other when we can't sleep and maybe it'll turn out that we ALL can't sleep and we can complain about it together, at least.

mysterygirl! said...

I, too, can't drink DC after 2 pm, so I feel your pain completely. Boooo.

eclectic said...

I like the communal insomnia plan. It's better than not-sleeping alone.

You can call me, 'Sir' said...

Ha! Great! I've been watching Megavideo for purt near 90 minutes! It's 12:31 A.M.! Super! Thanks!

You're the devil.